Coach Kirstin

Strange that it actually falls on the same day.  Three months really just means I'm going back to work. I contemplated more time unpaid but am choosing not to. I don't feel ready but I probably never will. I've been really anticommital these last 2 weeks and this upcoming weekend. Basically I just want to spend every second with her. I also just want to hold her constantly. I know bad habits starting. It will pass. She will go to daycare. I will cry and go to work. Cry some more. And probably cry every time I drop her off next week. Morning cocktail anyone? It was a pretty good week. We had an early morning (before it was miserably hot) walk through the neighborhood and she held her head up the whole time. She was the exhausted and needed a nap. You forget it's actually really hard for a little person to do all that. We are learning our fine line of over stimulation and then sleep is harder.  She definitely has the giggles now, which is adorable. We are w...

So I skipped week 11.  Mostly because I was in tears about having to leave McKenna and go back to work.  Mom guilt is a real thing.  It also makes me very angry about the maternity leave policy in this country.  It wasn’t something I honestly paid attention to before.  Maybe because I wasn’t planning on being a mom for a long time. Or probably because I assumed that is just a benefit you give people.  Now I am learning, we are about as good as a third world country.  We don’t even give government employees a maternity benefit.  No surprise that private companies wouldn’t feel obligated to provide that.   My time home with McKenna has been amazing.  I know so much about her, , her likes, her preferences, her behaviors and her routine.  We have had the benefit of setting our own schedule.  I don’t have to rush out in the morning.  I didn’t have to stress about pumping right away.  I have gotten to experience so much ...

The smile and the dimple make their first appearance  So 4th of July.  I had no idea how awful this holiday was as parent of young child.  As the 4th was Tuesday, there were fireworks Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Tuesday and then the best for Tuesday.  Its probably most frustrating as were just getting into a routine of her falling asleep on her own.  Oh well, its passed.  I would say we are back on our routine but as I am writing this, I’ve spent the last 2.5 hours attempting to get her to go to sleep after sleeping for all of about 1.5 hours between 10:30am and 7pm.  She’s exhausted but just won’t stay asleep when I put her down.  We will figure it out. Part of that bedtime routine is books and singing to her.  Except I don’t know what to sing.  I was trying to sing lullaby’s but they don’t have any significance to me.  So I was trying to think of songs that have significance to me, that got me no where so off to Goog...