My life is going in so many different directions right now. All of them forward. I feel the energy pulling my forward. I'm struggling with the feeling inside and what it means. Krav had been my life since last summer. And I couldn't love it more. I love having a focus and drive for each day. Its like the beginning of yoga class when I set my intention, its there everyday and I don't have to decide. I passed my Phase A in October and had been training for Phase B up until mid May, when I finished that up. Phase B was interesting. Didn't learn much but it was a long week. I had two great friends from Austin here for the test, they helped to keep me lighthearted and focused. They are great guys and did awesome on the test! I was originally planning on going to Phase C at the end of July but some things have come up to derail that plan. I have to trust its for the right reasons but it feels as though my intention is gone. Looking forward to my session with Sara tomorrow to keep things moving forward.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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