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Wow is about all I can say.  I won my fight last night and got fight of the night.  I executed my game plan exactly as we had planned.  I fought the fight I wanted to and couldn't be happier.  Though Im sure once I watch tape, Ill pick it apart and have things to change.  Thats where you grow and get better.  I trusted in my coaches, absorbed everything they said and it paid off.  Between them and my teammates, they have helped me grow unbelievably since my fight in April.  I dont think I have ever worked as hard as I did the last 7 weeks.  I love fighting.  I loved it more last night.  It brings a balance to my life that I can't replace.  It makes anything that happens in my day seem minor and tolerable.  It provides the structure that I need.  My food, my sleep, my job all are structured to allow me to do it.  It may seem extreme but that just me, 120% all the time.  The cycle is the most intense thing I have ever been through.  I watch my diet, think constantly about what I'm eating or not eating.  I think about fighting all the time.  I dream about it.  Catch my self envisioning the fight and how I want it to go.  I get lost in combinations.  Its exhausting, causing me to come to the point of not liking it, yet the best thing that happens to me.  And when it all comes down to it, when you step in the cage, nothing else matters.  Everything I did up until then is what matters.  Life gets pretty simple when surrounded by 8 sides of chain link fence.

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