So I thought I would die but eventually that would pass. And things started coming into focus. And then Saturday I felt great. I was wide awake. At 1 am. The thing was, without my caffeine crutch, I had to take care of myself and get sleep. I had no way to survive otherwise because I would shut down like you hit my power button. Which actually happened while my friend and I were at a coffee shop. I laid down on the bench and went to sleep. But 7 days in and I'm full of energy. Though I'd drink coffee again in a heart beat.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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