I've heard it takes 21 days to forge a habit. Well I'm on day 18 of not bitting my nails. I have bitten them for as long as I can remember. I have tried to quit for just as long. I'm more than a little neurotic and a very anxious person. But I've been working on focusing on the things that are in my control. And it has allowed me to become a little less anxious. But a few weeks ago I had to go to the ER to get my finger lanced. I had paronychia. Google it. Pretty gross. But it's a nail bitter thing. So I just decided to stop. There have definitely been times when I was about to bite my nails. And I have been very close. Sometimes you have to just tell that voice to shut up. And put a piece of gum in your mouth.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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