Coach Kirstin

This past weekend I decided to do some cleanup of my closets as we make room for baby. One of the things that was taking a lot of space in my closet was my 4 gi's. Anyone that knows me knows, I didn't really wear my gi's that much to begin with but it was still a weird thing. They have probably been sitting in my closet untouched for close to three years, yet it was still really hard to pack them up.  I actually carried all my gear (head gear, shin guards, MMA gloves) for at least a year after my last fight. Even though I knew I wasn't coming back because of the concussion. While I knew the decision and had made it on my own, it still took a while to come to reality with it. Maybe I still just wanted to be a part of that life. Even though I couldn't. Well I could but had made the decision for my long term health, I couldn't.  It was the same all over again with the Gi's. Maybe BJJ was my last thread of that life that I was holding onto.  It didn't h...

I'm writing this post about 2 weeks before I plan on publishing it.  Why?  Because I am 10 weeks pregnant and we have not announced it yet.  Things are going well (knock on wood) but I am 36 so I am just being cautious before we tell the world.  But I am struggling with accepting my body as it is.  There are a couple of factors playing into this.  First, I had a scar treatment on the old (21 years) scar on my knee.  It was supposed to break up the scar tissue and make it better.  It didn't.  It opened up the old scar in multiple places.  After one round of antibiotics, a lot of cleaning, butterfly bandaids and not bending it, it is almost closed.  11 weeks later.  Second reason, I am beyond exhausted.  I read that you will be more tired the first trimester of your pregnancy but wow.  I am struggling just to make it through the work day.  Going to the gym almost seems impossible.  On a regular, I am taking a ...