In the 16 years since my car accident that caused my knee injury I have learned the most important thing to keeping my knee healthy is regular exercise and strength training. I normally don't have much trouble with this but that last 4 weeks have been completely out of the norm. I spent a week sick, the next week recovering and training a bit but the two weeks after that I have no good real excuse. I quit teaching at KMDC and thus lost my usual place to train. Sounds like a valid reason except I have an entire gym worth of equipment sitting in my living room. Mats, kick shield, tombstones, heavy bag, hurdles, I have my own Thai pads and focus mitts, there's even a timer if I wanted to use it. But I haven't. I've been trying to rectify the situation which has caused there to be an entire gym in my living room. The lease for my school. We had been hung out to dry by our leasing company for the last 5 weeks. But the stars aligned and they signed the lease last Thursday. So now we just need a change of use inspection, scheduled for Monday, then we can get a certificate of occupancy and a business license. But my body has suffered. I internalize many things, which ripples. As the lease fell apart, I slept less. My workouts got worse and less frequent. And today I felt it. I feel swelling and pain in my knee that hasn't been there in a few years. So tomorrow, before we head out for a day of grappling tournaments and MMA fights, I'll get up and get a workout in.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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