I have a confession, I know your not supposed to do it but without fail I get on the scale every morning. After I pee of course to ensure I'm measuring the same thing every day. I know this isn't a good habit. I know daily weights mean very little. Which I can attest to because regardless of eating the same thing (yes I can say I eat the same thing several days in a row, which is a whole other post already in the works) with the same workout, I'd have a different weight each day. Sometimes a lot. Some times a little but it always varies. So post phase I was feeling a little thinner so tested it out but no change in weight. This actually doesn't ever bother me because I'm more at a point of trying to change my body composition than loosing weight, yeah I know that's about as contrary as it gets to weighing yourself everyday. But then I got sick. Which for me usually means the scale ticks up just a bit because while I may not really understand taking it easy I do let my body rest and heal if sick. But all week was like a bathroom scale version of groundhog day, 144.4. Yes I did take a foot off one day to make sure it was actually working. I have analyzed last week from every possible angle to understand how that could have happened. My activity level was inconsistent, diet terrible, sleep and fluids at low levels, all factors that normally cause me to fluctuate. But my weight never budged. I have a theory, developed from my over research of nutrition and weight loss, that there is an ideal spot for our bodies to be at. When your there it takes a lot to change that. And last week my body hit "survival mode" as I became incredibly sick. So my conclusion, extremely unscientifically, is that it was a form of self protection that caused my weight to be exactly the same for 7 days in a row. It budged this am by .2lbs.....
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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