There are times when you are expected to be nervous. But those times you know what to do with the nerves, where they come from, what will make them subside. Then there are times when your nerves get the best of you and you can't explain why. It's a somewhat natural reaction but your reaction becomes unnatural, unexplainable. And your not sure what causes it so you don't know how to handle it. Things are black and white to me, ask any one I work with. Not knowing the cause of a feelings is unfamiliar territory. I cant wrap my head around it and solve it, which is what I do with everything. So I do the only thing I can do. You take a deep breath and hold on to what you know.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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