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Winning

So I did a jiu jitsu tournament this past weekend. I did it purely for the experience of competing, not because I like bjj. I haven't competed in 5 months and figured I needed to shake the jitters a little. The only matches I cared about were my no-gi matches. Lets be honest, I just don't know what I'm doing in a gi. And thus I don't like it. It's not like sex, where the first time you didn't know what you were doing but it felt good so you kept doing it. Nope. I didn't know what I was doing and it made it even worse. So this weekend, I won my no-gi match and then had my gi match. I was facing the girl I just beat in no-gi, knew she trained extensively in the gi and had a moment of panic that I don't know what I'm doing in the gi. I was walking to my match and thought "it's ok if she beats me, I don't really care". And then we slapped hands. It's like the little green monster takes over and I must win. There's nothing on the line other than pride. But that's all I need. And I won. 4 more times that day. I took gold in every division, including my two gi divisions.

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