Yes I already compete in plenty of things. There really is no need to take on another thing to compete in. But there is. My competitions seem to be feast or famine. Almost everything over the last 2 years has been within a 4-6 week grouping. And then I don't compete again for another 6 months. And I have tons of anxiety wondering if I have ring rust and put extra pressure on myself since I don't get to compete that often. Then this summer Nate Diaz came for a seminar and talked about doing the triathlons and that they were just another way to be actively competing. That we, as athletes, should compete as often as possible to avoid the things I mentioned above. Shortly after the seminar one of my mma teammates asked me to do a crossfit competition as his partner. I initially objected but decided that I needed to do it anyhow. I have to admit, I really wasn't excited about it. Actually I still don't understand the excitement. But in reality I experienced a lot of the same nerves I have when I compete in combat sports, just on a much less intense scale. Oh and no one is punching me in the face or trying to break my arm off. So first crossfit competition in the books and I am planning on another in December. Then begins the switch back to fight prep...after a little holiday food
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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