Do you ever see something and think “That’s a terrible idea”? Apparently that’s what I’m magnetically drawn to. Anything that’s bad for me. If it’s a dumb idea I’ve probably tried it. Maybe except for stealing cars, haven’t gone there. But if I keeping driving Mike’s M5, it won’t be long. Sometimes I know it’s dumb and decide f***-it and do it anyhow. Other times, most times, there are red flags everywhere. And I dismiss them. Rationalize them. Ignore all logic I see written everywhere. Believe the things I hear instead of that gut feeling. Ignore that feeling that is right almost always. But only in my personal life. At work, I’ve followed my gut more times than what people told me to do. Its worked out well. Guided me through breaks, different paths and now down the path I’m pursuing. Strange thing to not trust your instincts on the one thing you should.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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