So most of the music I like doesn’t play at large venues, probably better for me because people get on my nerves most days. But a few weeks back I was asked if I wanted to go to RHCP concert. Honestly, if it had been anyone else I would have said no but it was two of my best friends and probably one of my favorite couples to be around. They are that relationship you can only hope to have, that just seems to work easily. They have fun with each other. I also have a ton of fun around them. They have been my biggest advocate as I went through some shit in the last year, being the logic I sometimes didn’t have and also hugely support my fighting. Who would have known that me falling asleep on their couch during fights would lead to this friendship? I could never quite figure out what made their relationship work so well and then we got in a conversation about double lives and being honest in your relationships, especially sexually. The ability to always be honest, even when it’s not what your “supposed” to say but it’s how you feel. Seems so simple but it’s really a huge thing. It made me look back at some of my relationships, the ones that were the most powerful and happy had that same vein of honesty.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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