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Last day of work

Wow the last 4 months has gone so fast. I have been completely immersed in Krav training. I haven't run in 3 months. I haven't seen a Red Sox game since the end of June the week before I started training. I do know they are in the play offs as the wild card though. Today is my last day of work for 20 days. I will be leaving on Monday for Santa Clara for work training, then to LA on the 9th to start instructor training on the 10th. I will finish on the 16th. Then on Saturday I head to New Orleans to celebrate my GF's 30th birthdays! Packing for this trip is an endeavor all in its own.

As for my instructor test, I actually feel ready. And I am still really excited. Its a mix of nerves and excitement. Anyone who knows me is not shocked by the nerves part. I finally feel like I understand instead of just do the techniques. There's not anything I'm not comfortable with. I just need to do it right instead of half assing anything. I also know Chris wouldn't let me go if I wasn't ready. Honestly though, I never felt so ready for anything in my life. I honestly believe the only option is to pass. Maybe that's a bit cocky but maybe I have to be a bit cocky. KMDC has great instructors who have helped me to prepare. Some listen, some give advice, some drill me until I hate it and some see my weaknesses and make me work through them.

These last few months have challenged me. Made me doubt myself. Made grow stronger. And more than anything have made me believe in myself.

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