The weekend after I found out about my fight one of my coaches said "I tell my guys three things...and 3 is learn something." I have tried to keep track this whole time of what I was learning. It wasn't just technique. Though I did learn a lot about that. I learned about peaking and the cycle. What my body feels like going through that. That I hate the sauna. That I already over hydrate. That there is nothing quite like grape pedialyte after a weighin. I eat A LOT of salt. I have the most patient and amazing friends. I love my teammates and coaches. I love each of my coaches for different reasons. Getting punched isn't that fun but it's not that bad. It's a lot more fun to punch someone else. I'm not eating chicken for a while. I learned to listen to my coaches even when I want to do something else. I learned to control my adrenaline. I learned how I react in the cage and where my frustration point is. And there is nothing quite like that feeling. I can't wait to do it again.
So I have thought about this for a while. Do I actually write this post? Do I put my dirty laundry out there for everyone? Or the handful that read my blog. And if I do, what do I say? Do I slam those involved? Do I take the high road? When is a “good” time to put it out there? A few days under my belt and there is probably no better time. So no secret, my ex-boyfriend was my coach. That worked out mildly well while we were together but add a breakup and somehow it just doesn’t work out as smoothly. Add a few of the worst things a person could do to another in there and disaster doesn’t even begin to describe. But I have this eternal belief that I can make any situation work. That I can fix things. It’s what makes me good at my job. I’m an eternal optimist. But it’s what causes me to not be so good at my personal life. Even when things are clearly not good, I still think I can fix it and make it right...
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