Have you ever seen a kid throwing a fit screaming and making a scene in the middle of the store when their parent told them “no” about something? That's what goes on in my head when I want sweets or a coke. My inner two year old starts screaming and jumping up and down yelling "I want it! I need it! I have to have it!” And I give in. I do want it. I think I need it. And when Im having a shitty moment, it does make me feel better. I find solace in my food. I feel like I should be about 300 lbs to be able to say that.
Until I feel the remorse for eating it. And then I say Im not doing that again. But I do. Often. And it’s a constant struggle I go through.
And then I saw something a few days ago as I was scrolling Facebook from one of the many fitness things I follow. It said to tell yourself “I don’t eat that.” I scrolled fast because I eat good. But I don’t. Meals wise Im great. I have figured out what works for me. But I’m a train wreck when it comes to the sweets. Figured I’d give it a shot. Couldn’t be any worse than the current situation.
So 5 days in and its actually working. Granted this may not seem like much to you. Reality it’s not. But every day I start over with the same goal and I make it through about lunch… So 5 days is a minor miracle. Is there room for improvement? Absolutely! But let’s start with baby steps. And today that’s not having a coke with every meal.
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